sometimes , i feel uncomfortable staying in the environment , i mean friends .. Not the close one , just an ordinary one .. they don't know me well , anyway i dont know myself well . my close friends know me quite well but not my secret AT ALL , ya . perhaps i am the ordinary , traditional type of cancer ... i 'quite' believe in horoscope . i saw something bout my horoscope the other day , the thing said the cancer like to know bout others secret but they wont let others know theirs . Their emotion go up n down easily . that's me ! i can laugh with you this minute andthe next minute , i can not even talk to anyone and just be there quietly ... sometimes i ask myself , WHY ? is that the people have done something wrong or what to make me not talking with them ? NO !! that's just me n myself ... my own problem ! actually i dont have any problem .. what a crazy girl ...however i have a happy life until today ... i seldom cry except the only movie , acted by richie ren n cecelia cheung .. actually i dont really love that movie but really TOUCH ... i only dare to watch once , i dont wanna cry ! the next time i cry & i remember quite well , is 3 years before .. that is my little secrte .. anyway , i cried .. not long , just bout half and hour ... but after the movie , i started to cry when i watch something touch in the TV show ... triumph in the skies .. point of no return .. bla bla bla ... even a comedy , i cry .. not really crying , juz my tears drop and it is out of control .. really not long ... not more than half a quarter . anyway , i enjoy my happy life , and about the bunch of ordinary friends , i don;t really care actually . as one of my friends said , they are just playing a minor character in my life .. yuen yee m keep ur happy life up ... by the way , i love my character ... i am a quite childish one .. but as one of my friends said , again ... now is the only chance for me to be childish , when i am 20 something i wont have the chance anymore .. haha .. i still remember .. rock on YUEN YEE ...